Dazey's World

'i dont have time!'

'the future is that time when you will regret not doing what you could be doing now.'

true say.

u know u get those forwards-the kind that everyone gets n u just get annoyed with? well sumtimes they do speak sum sense. actualy they usually speak sum sense, just the fact that we've seen it so many times before makes us get darn well annoyed with em (the claims that if we 'dont send it to x number of ppl within y number of minutes a great calamity will befall' dnt help either). anyway. one of these forwards was speaking about how shaytans new weapon is time-or the lack of it. here shaykh hamza yusuf would add that heedlessness is another of the great ills which is afflicting our ummah n making us become so backward and lost-tho thats another story. but speaking about time-makes me think how true it is. sumthing i find i experience so often-five times a day to be exact- is that when i stand to pray i feel overwhelmed with a sense of the lack of time and the great number of things i have to do. result:speedy prayer lacking the basics of khushoo and concentration. and then-n heres wat sickens me most-i waste SO much time otherwise doing literally nothing. sitting around staring aimlessly at the pc screen doing nothing of any benefit in the world of cyber space or even just hanging around not doing much in general. really, its true-the sense of being 'oh-so-busy' and 'lack of time' is indeed shaytans new weapon. and its not just in prayers. any act of ibadah really-study circles (missed at the slightest sense of inconvenience), quran recitation, study of islamic literature, etc.

the best of actions to Allah is supposed to be those which r regular-not random. like watering a plant, u cant leave it for 10 days and chuck in a bucketful when u remember or feel like uve got the time. like the dying plant is the dying soul which one tends to forget about or neglect in pursuit of other more 'important' things which keep us 'busy'. wats more important tho? piking what clothes to wear (i shudnt have so many in the first place)?

its often the case that i think 'o dear havent read any good islamic books in a lifetime' n then pik up a book and read it. n thats my book for the next few months. bcoz then i get bak into the whole hustle n bustle of everyday existence and dont get a chance to read more-or so i think. its not about reading it all in one go n then dropping it, if that was the case, then yes i wont have time, it can take a fair few hours or even days to finish a good book in a go. its about having a steady flow of reading and intake of knowledge, not random chunks. thats how time can be made and well spent. spending an hour or half an hour a day perhaps after fajr or maghrib-thats how a healthy system of ibadah works. its like wen i dont drink/eat all day and then swallow a whole bottle or a big meal in a go in the evening (yes i do that) and then wonder y ppl say i look wasted. it doesnt work like that. just like the body needs a steady flow of food and drink to stay healthy, so does the soul. perhaps more so, as that is infact the immortal component of our being-the part that wont rot and decay away after we die, the part that will return to Allah. yet one tends to neglect it so much, focussing on that part of us which is, literally, worm food. thats how pointless it is, its the food of insects and maggots.

the soul is an amanah from Allah, that will retun to him. the very nature of an amanah is that we take care of it and return it to its original owner as pure and good as we recieved it. returning a blackened and sickly soul to the creator is simply an ungrateful and self degrading action. and i cant believe i tend to take it so lightly.

new years resolution (iA): get my act together and make FRUITFUL use of my time with the hope that on the day i meet my lord, i will not have to cover my face in shame at the neglect my soul has suffered in pursuit of the nourishment of my body.

may Allah help us to hold on to His rope always and keep us in His shade of guidance always. and may he help us to keep the ultimate goal and the true important aspects of life in focus. Always.

there. ive just spilled a lot of pent up anger towards myself-hope i dint knock u all out in the process. plz remember me in ur duas.

ws xx

posted by dazey @ 4:20 PM